Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Running on Empty

Run down of the day...today's theme "so much to do so little time!" Didn't take a nap and I'm basically running on fumes.  Abby was fine all day. As my friend Jeanne said "Is Abby better? If so that is the fastest stomach bug ever" so I really don't know what it is. It could possibly be the fact that Mommy never lets me eat hawaiian pizza from Little Ceasar's so when nanny Roxana offers it to me I'm going to gorge myself on it and have TWO whole slices. Yuck. Bad Nanny, she knows better! No fast food for Abby even when you want to treat her. Her stomach is too sensitive for that crap.   Anywhoooo, she went for her wellness appointment and she is on track and healthy.  Got her flu shot today and was such a big brave girl with the doctor.  Told Dr. Sachs about the baby coming and he asks when I'm due. I tell him December and Dr. Sachs, the king of inappropriate comments, says "Oh, you look much further along!" Um yeah. Thanks? Then he proceeds to call Abby short and fat, saying that she is half an inch shorter than average and about a pound over average weight.  I told him the nurse didn't measure her right because she's usually taller than most kids the same age.  The nerve.  Anyway, I tell him about the news. He tells me that he knows of several other young women who have been diagnosed as well and that it seems to be more and more frequent. He makes me feel comforted that Peanut will be fine and we'll get through this. So I forgive him as usual for his strange comments...

Come home and get on the computer, respond to emails, make more calls, pay bills, pay Mandeville Canyon bills, and the time gets away from me so I forget to eat lunch. BAD. BAD. BAD. I have all this healthy and delicious food from Chef Jason so really I have no excuse. I pack myself a ton of food to go and change quickly to pick up David for Dr. McAndrew's office!  I scarf down food at stop lights. We finally arrive at Tower Oncology and oh boy, this place looks like a machine. We check in and they are ready for me. The receptionist whips through consent forms like a tornado so fast my head spins. David asks if she has a sister that's just as good so he can hire her immediately. I glance up and see a patient walk by with a scarf on her head and I almost lose it. That really got to me for some reason. This is really happening.

OMG, then this woman, no goddess, named Portia goes over insurance and explains everything you ever did and didn't want to know about insurance, deductibles, co-insurance and stop loss. That was an education that I desperately needed.

We get back to the waiting room and before I can even finish the questionnaire or scarf down more lunch we are escorted back to meet Dr. McAndrew.  I see her and get emotional. She gives me the warmest hug and tells me it's going to be OK.  I don't know if it's the fatigue or the lack of eating or both but we go over so much information and I feel like I only retained about 10% of it.  Basically, the gist is that I need Chemo to contain and shrink this tumor on a fast track because we need to get enough sessions in that we can start to treat and get my counts back up in time to deliver.

Gotta go! Sharon, my new BFF, is calling me so she can help me download all this info. Oh yeah, I'm starting Chemo most likely this coming Monday. How's that for being so fast it makes your head spin?

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