Speaking of piano lessons here is Leo three months ago taking his "first" piano lesson. He LOVED it. I can't believe I haven't posted this year. Three months ago he was so "tiny"...now he's 27+ pounds and if Lucy from Peanuts was his friend she might just call him "block head"...
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Some levity
Being a mom is HARD WORK and I'm just getting started. My sister in law Trish sent this to me months ago and I just got around to watching it. I am crying laughing but also cringing at the thought of what is to come...
Speaking of piano lessons here is Leo three months ago taking his "first" piano lesson. He LOVED it. I can't believe I haven't posted this year. Three months ago he was so "tiny"...now he's 27+ pounds and if Lucy from Peanuts was his friend she might just call him "block head"...
Speaking of piano lessons here is Leo three months ago taking his "first" piano lesson. He LOVED it. I can't believe I haven't posted this year. Three months ago he was so "tiny"...now he's 27+ pounds and if Lucy from Peanuts was his friend she might just call him "block head"...
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Just Diagnosed?
If you have just been diagnosed I want you to know that I am here if you want to talk. At first hearing the words "you have cancer" turns your world upside down and inside out. I look back over the past year and realize that there have been some major lows and I was scared for a good, long part of that year but being on the other side now I feel I can tell you that you will get through this (and I'm still not entirely done with all my milestones).
Your life will be forever changed. I know mine is. I had breast cancer. Everything is different (physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually) yet many things are the same. You can't control that you have cancer but you can control how you respond to it, treat it, and move forward.
You can email me by clicking on the "email" photo. I look forward to hearing from you and if I don't please know that there are many people who you can turn to for support. Your family and friends will be there for you. I found that I leaned on other cancer survivors the most though when times got tough; they truly understood what I was going through. There are also free cancer support groups, check out the cancer support community in your area and online cancer forums (just take many websites with a grain of salt, an open mind, and a list to write questions to ask your oncologist, there is a ton of misleading information out there).
Thank you for listening and reading. I wish you comfort and ease on your journey.
Your life will be forever changed. I know mine is. I had breast cancer. Everything is different (physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually) yet many things are the same. You can't control that you have cancer but you can control how you respond to it, treat it, and move forward.
You can email me by clicking on the "email" photo. I look forward to hearing from you and if I don't please know that there are many people who you can turn to for support. Your family and friends will be there for you. I found that I leaned on other cancer survivors the most though when times got tough; they truly understood what I was going through. There are also free cancer support groups, check out the cancer support community in your area and online cancer forums (just take many websites with a grain of salt, an open mind, and a list to write questions to ask your oncologist, there is a ton of misleading information out there).
Thank you for listening and reading. I wish you comfort and ease on your journey.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Taking stock
I cried in pilates today. I am working hard. Extremely hard. I took a private ballet lesson yesterday too. My teacher told me I am making incredible progress but that I seem weak. Weaker than before. She suggested I get my blood checked just to make sure. I don't want to. I'm having a brief moment of being in denial. I just don't want to do it at the moment. It's the beginning of the Holiday season and I don't want to "go there"...I have a PET/CT scheduled December 12th and an appointment with Dr. McAndrew on the 14th to review the results. I can get it all done at that time. I don't feel I have cancer and the scan will confirm it. I am choosing to believe this; that means that I don't need to make time to schedule an extra appointment...I'm tired sure, but I am also a mom to two young children and that will make ANYONE tired.
This is a photo of me at my weakest point, or correction, one of my weaker moments of the past year. I still can't decide if it was the mastectomy or the radiation that was hardest but I digress. It was taken by my beautiful friend Ashley as I was getting some platelets after my mastectomy in late April. I do not recognize this person. If you saw me today you would have NO idea that I had been to hell and back in the past year. Nor would you believe that I am the person in this photo. As Thanksgiving approached this year I knew I had a lot to be thankful for in my life. I am so happy not to be at that weak point anymore. I am thrilled to be in a place where I can begin to move forward but now knowing new depths to my soul and character.
I am so thankful to announce that I am OFF the lexapro and trazedone. No more anti-depressants or sleeping aids. I started taking those just after this photo was taken actually. I feel I am making things work to the best of my abilities. I don't want excess drugs in my system. I already have to take the lupron and tamoxifen for 5 years and that is enough.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone. It is a great opportunity to "take stock" of what you are grateful for in your life and for acknowledging all that you have achieved, learned, built, shared, loved, and gave back in the past year and to make plans for all that you hope to do in the coming year to make you even more grateful the following year.
This is a photo of me at my weakest point, or correction, one of my weaker moments of the past year. I still can't decide if it was the mastectomy or the radiation that was hardest but I digress. It was taken by my beautiful friend Ashley as I was getting some platelets after my mastectomy in late April. I do not recognize this person. If you saw me today you would have NO idea that I had been to hell and back in the past year. Nor would you believe that I am the person in this photo. As Thanksgiving approached this year I knew I had a lot to be thankful for in my life. I am so happy not to be at that weak point anymore. I am thrilled to be in a place where I can begin to move forward but now knowing new depths to my soul and character.
I am so thankful to announce that I am OFF the lexapro and trazedone. No more anti-depressants or sleeping aids. I started taking those just after this photo was taken actually. I feel I am making things work to the best of my abilities. I don't want excess drugs in my system. I already have to take the lupron and tamoxifen for 5 years and that is enough.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone. It is a great opportunity to "take stock" of what you are grateful for in your life and for acknowledging all that you have achieved, learned, built, shared, loved, and gave back in the past year and to make plans for all that you hope to do in the coming year to make you even more grateful the following year.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Life is GOOD
I love my husband. Life is good. Family is precious. I have amazing, beautiful, healthy babies. Chemo is done. I am feeling better every day. My hair is growing in curly. What the hell. I am happy beyond words. I look forward to each and every day with anticipation of all of life's possibilities and opportunities. I have incredible empathy for others and want to make this world a more beautiful and peaceful place. Happy 7th Anniversary David. I love you.
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