Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Hanging in there...

Saw Dr. Daly yesterday. Peanut is doing great. I was 30 weeks yesterday and he is measuring 31 weeks 5 days, almost 2 weeks ahead.  He is already in birth position and his torso is laying on my right side with his  feet stretching out over to my left side. This explains why my left side is black and blue. Kidding. He is a very strong kicker though.  During the ultrasound he was opening and closing his mouth. At first it seemed like he was yawning then we figured out that he was trying to talk to us.  Very precious.

Dr. Daly didn't like the port incision so she is getting me in to see Dr. Robert Winters who is an infectious disease doctor.  I think that sounds more serious than it is.  He told me to use bactroban and keep it covered. NOT what Cedars told me.  It already is feeling better.  I am praying for the best.

Had a good session with Pam, our therapist. Dealing with cancer is extremely difficult. It is emotionally, physically, and spiritually exhausting and hard on relationships. It is hard for the person with cancer and hard for the spouse.  We are both trying to figure out how to work through this and we are both tapped to the max with responsibilities.  Thankfully things are going well for David at work but that means he is the busiest he's ever been.  We're both super stressed out. What's the most difficult is that it's only been less than a month and a half of learning about the diagnosis and since have been thrust with lighting speed into a marathon we never wanted to run.  I am very thankful to have such a special partner that is incredibly supportive.  It's hard on him because he doesn't always know what to do and I don't always know how to tell him what I want.  And usually that's because I don't even know myself what I need.

There needs to be a manual for being bald.  I have been wearing all these warm comfy knitted caps to cover my beautiful baldness.  While they are comfortable and discreet they are also very WARM.  The warmth has made my head a little itchy.  I noticed some skin flaking off so decided to look in the mirror, I am doing less and less of that these days, and also noticed that my skin in breaking out in little pimples at the hairline.  I had cradle cap. Just like a newborn baby.  Excellent!  So I used a soft bristle brush to scrub my scalp for about 15 minutes. It was like a winter wonderland of white scalp flakes...and tons of hair came out, it looked like the sink after David shaves in the morning.  Took a shower and experienced even more hair loss.  I'm becoming a shiny female Telly Savalas.  I've been sleeping with a warm hat from the North Face but decided I better let as much air hit the scalp as possible.  Same goes for anytime I am at home now, I will be a Sinead O'Connor look-a-like...

Interviewed some people for the morning position. I think it will help tremendously, particularly when the new baby arrives.  Note to self to get on baby names.  Calling him Peanut all the time is not helping.  We have a list of names but none of them are "calling" us so strongly that we can make a decision!

Acupuncture today at 4pm after seeing Dr. Winters at 2pm.   Calling Piny to finalize my wig now that I need to wear it without clips. Two more morning nanny interviews, Abby dance class and ADT security comes to fix whatever made the alarm go off Saturday morning at 2:30AM...

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