I just had a moment 15 minutes ago where I was looking over at the baby monitor checking on Abby while she was napping and felt so very blessed. I am so blessed to have this wonderful family. An amazing, supportive husband and two beautiful babies. My heart is so full. I think people hope for a life like this. I know I did for a very long time. Despite having cancer I have been very blessed in this lifetime. I am starting to understand more now about God giving you only what you can handle. I wasn't able to understand it before because I was still so angry. I feel that God wants me to be a beacon for SIDS and for breast cancer. If I am able to help others who have been affected by either of these traumas then I know I am doing honorable work. Then I know my life has a more wonderful purpose than the rewarding role of being a mother and wife. Cancer you will not break me, cancer you will die and I will live. I will live a bigger, more passionate, more fulfilling life and you will be dead and gone.
Reading this made me smile. What a beautiful heart. Just by your sharing through this blog you are already blessing others. You will no doubt be a brightly shining guiding light for others.
ReplyDeleteHi Jessica,
ReplyDeleteIt's touching to read your thoughts about what you are going through. I've always admired you and continue to do so. You're a brave, strong, beautiful soul and you have a beautiful family.
Love in PKE,
Jane (Ra) Roberts