The next phase of surgery will take out the rock-like expander and insert the silicon implant, she will also reduce and lift my left breast to match the other. I will go in looking like a Picasso experiment and come out with two perky young lady boobs. I haven't had those since I was a teenager. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Plus I talked to the coordinator and our new insurance allows for the surgery at Dr. Hayden's center. That means no red tape dealing with the hospital and their schedulers. That means I can do my surgery as soon as February 7th. When I first heard that I freaked out. So soon? But yes, I want this stupid expander out of me ASAP. I've put the pedal to the metal and booked that date. My surgery will be Tuesday, February 7th. Oh boy. I'll spend two nights at Serenity following the surgery and then head home. Apparently this recovery shouldn't be as bad as the last one. Well I should hope not since my body and blood were so weak at that time from child birth and chemotherapy. Let's plan on this surgery being a walk in the park compared to the nightmare of last surgery. Amen.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Latest and Greatest
I met with Dr. Hayden last week. At least I think it was last week. The days all seem to blur together for some reason. I have been busy, busy, busy. I have to call the coordinator tomorrow to find out when I can schedule my surgery. This surgery will take out the expander, put in the implant and then reduce and lift my left breast to match the right plus she will be taking out whatever fat I have left in my belly to graft it to the left breast for a more natural look and feel. Bad news is that I will have to have the skin reduction (a result of the twins) at a later date. Barbara says I will look and feel incredible after this next surgery though and I should recover much easier. She said I need to prepare for the anxiety that comes with undergoing surgery again in the hospital, apparently most people don't anticipate that.
No nanny today. For the first time ever since I've had Leo. I'm spoiled, okay? It worked out actually. I DID IT! It may sound ridiculous but I am kicking ass and taking names. Of course, I had ZERO time to myself but it was totally doable. I even played on swings outside with kids, got Abby to school, fed all them all three meals, went to trader joe's, went to Armstrong Garden Center, took both kids and both dogs for a walk, and did a little home organizing and decorating. You'd think I took Adderall but I didn't!! I'm just SUPER tired and didn't get to make or return any phone calls or emails...
Need to remember that Leo got his 7th tooth January 15th. Will have to extrapolate backwards to figure out when he got his first six. Oy, his poor baby book isn't going to have too much info in it. Perhaps he will understand later in life that it wasn't the easiest of years and will forgive me.
Life is going back to normal at such a rapid speed. I can't stop it. It's like jumping right back into the fire. I'm trying to pick up where I "left off" on things before my diagnosis but holy hell, it's really too much. Will talk about that more later.
Good night!
No nanny today. For the first time ever since I've had Leo. I'm spoiled, okay? It worked out actually. I DID IT! It may sound ridiculous but I am kicking ass and taking names. Of course, I had ZERO time to myself but it was totally doable. I even played on swings outside with kids, got Abby to school, fed all them all three meals, went to trader joe's, went to Armstrong Garden Center, took both kids and both dogs for a walk, and did a little home organizing and decorating. You'd think I took Adderall but I didn't!! I'm just SUPER tired and didn't get to make or return any phone calls or emails...
Need to remember that Leo got his 7th tooth January 15th. Will have to extrapolate backwards to figure out when he got his first six. Oy, his poor baby book isn't going to have too much info in it. Perhaps he will understand later in life that it wasn't the easiest of years and will forgive me.
Life is going back to normal at such a rapid speed. I can't stop it. It's like jumping right back into the fire. I'm trying to pick up where I "left off" on things before my diagnosis but holy hell, it's really too much. Will talk about that more later.
Good night!
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
It's 2012?!?!
Holy crap. It's the "new" year. Happy New Year Everyone! Time to make things happen or actually... time to make our best efforts at making things happen.
I just posted this on facebook and twitter (Jan 4th):
"I really want to make my life mean something. I think the only way to do that is to help others. How can I learn to be more altruistic? I hate that I am selfish. This year things are going to change."
I just posted this on facebook and twitter (Jan 4th):
"I really want to make my life mean something. I think the only way to do that is to help others. How can I learn to be more altruistic? I hate that I am selfish. This year things are going to change."
Two things are happening here. I want to badly to BE and DO so many different things. I also realize that the reality of what I can BE and DO are becoming more limited with each passing day. The solution to this problem is to sort the wheat from the chaff and then work accordingly.
Oy. Let's get it started.
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