Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Oops...I skipped a post

I skipped a kind of important post. After the bone scan, I did have the PET/CT scan and Breast MRI. This is what I posted on Facebook that was the missing link between the past two posts. There are a couple lesions on my liver, some spots on my bones and abdominal lymph nodes. I actually thought for some reason that sitting down with the PET/CT report and my anatomy chart so that I could pinpoint all the spots that were identified as "highly metabolic activity" areas would be a good idea so that I could be educated about it. Well, what the fuck? That just made me more depressed and angry. It was then that I realized like Dr. Mao told me - the report, it doesn't matter. It really doesn't. Time to move on, time to live life in the present, time to hug and kiss my kiddos, time to dance all night with my husband, time to empower myself to fight, fight, fight. It is time to be grateful. It is time to be thankful. I am so blessed. May I be filled with loving kindness, may I live a life of ease, may I be well, may I be happy.



Utterly devastated to report that the PET/CT shows that the cancer has spread to small areas of my liver, bones and lymph. I will post here what I told my family earlier - "many people live for years with metastatic disease, I am going to give it all I've got and then some." I feel healthy right now and I plan to do all I can to stay that way. Thank you for all the love and support. Means a ton! I will update my blog later when I can clear my head.
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  • Rebecca C. -  You are strong. Determined. Beautiful. You and your family are in my heart.
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  • Linda S. -  I admire your incredible strength and the fight in your spirit Jess. Sending positive thoughts and prayers to you and your family.
  • Jennie M. -  To my strong beautiful niece you are the strongest woman I know and have much life ahead of you there is one thing I want you to know I am and have always been here for you. You and your family are not alone. Lori I am here for you to. Just. Call anytime. Sending all my love. Auntie
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  • Adriana B. -  I'm sad to hear the news, but encouraged by your spirit to fight. You are blessed to have much to fight for. You have the inner beauty and strength to overcome this f'n cancer. I'm so mad. Love you. Hugs. XOXO
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  • Laurie D. -  Jessica, you are an amazing woman, and we are so inspired by your strength! We are praying for you and Dave and your family and know you can overcome each challenge that comes your way! Sending you love and positive energy your way!!!!
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  • Courtney J. -  Jess, I am so sorry to hear this. If anyone can beat this it's you! You are the strongest and most inspiring person I have ever met. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Please let us know if we can do anything. xo
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  • Jessica M. -  Today I begin Novena for you. I will do whatever I can with my humble prayers and as your fellow online mama to keep you healthy and beat cancer. Awareness, schamareness. RESEARCH. Activism. Community. You are not alone, you are so loved and so many of us will help you fight and win. Love to you and your family.
  • Renee T.  - Blessings to you, you are a fighter and I know you will give it a hell of a fight and win. If you need anything the Traub and Workman clan are here for you. Hang in there. xoxoxo
  • Michele S. -  Stay strong Jess....I am praying for you. xoxo
  • Hege S. -  I am so bummed when David told me. Time to pull out all the stops and throw the kitchen sink at this coward devil!!
  • Jennifer M. -  I'm so sad to hear this awful piece of news. Sending you love, prayers and a world of fight.
  • Lisa B. -  You're right! Many people live for years with m.b.d. Sending hugs your way from Ventura.
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  • Jill O. -  Jessica: You stay strong and focused. Please reach out and let us know what we can do to help and show support: dinners, food delivery, whatever. You have a village of people who want to help. You are amazing and you are in my family's prayers!
  • Patricia F. -  Stay strong Jess. Prayers hugs and kisses for you and the family.
  • Elisha H. -  Praying for you. Sending lots of love and energy. Stay strong mama. Xx
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  • Marianne P. -  I am left speechless with nothing but goosebumps and tears reacting to your terrible news. I know you will rise above this evil intrusion and tackle what ever you will need to do.... but in the meantime, many good cries are in order here to gather strength... I am so very sad to learn this news.
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  • Heather R. -  Jess, I am so sorry. I really thought that all this was going to be behind you by now. How could it not be? You are super woman!! Praying for you and your beautiful family... Stay strong and Keep up the amazing work! Xoxo
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  • Lindsay L -  Jess, love you and praying everyday for you. God can heal you -- believe and have faith. You have climbed mountains these last few years and I believe you have the strength the get through this next one. Wish I lived closer to be helping hand. xo
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  1. HappyGromitLAOctober 18, 2012 at 11:34 AM

    Hell. Friggin' cancer. Well, you have one of the best oncologists in the country, and with the help of Dr. Mao and your other practitioners, you are going to be your own spiritual oncologist. You're already on the path. You'll have ever cell, pathway and chakra telling that cancer to get the hell out of Dodge. Many thanks for taking the time and effort to write these updates. S.

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